Aborted Women: In Their Own Words

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My letter is not directly about abortion, but your article helped me very much.

I have a son, Bryston, who is 5 years old, and I haven't seen him since he was one week old. I gave up my parental rights because his mother did not want to marry me, and did not want me in his life. I cannot blame her: at the time I was a total idiot. I did not fight her because I would rather have my son grow up in a home that is not ripped apart by contention, even if that means he is taught or learns to hate me.

I have often thought of how my immature sexual decisions will affect me the rest of my life, and how they may affect my son throughout his life. I read of "men" who leave their women once they become pregnant. That makes me furious. How is it possible to actually want to throw away a relationship that is one of the greatest in your life?

I love my son with all of my heart, and it is a trajedy that I will never be able to tell him this. I have tried so hard to forgive myself, but there does not seem to be a sense of finality. I have ended many relationships because I often do not feel worthy to be loved by anyone ever again. All this, and for what?

My son's mother married shortly after I gave up my rights, and my son is in a good home.

I hope you don't mind me writing to you about this, I suppose I had alot of pent up feelings, and I also wanted to tell the story from a male's point of view. One who gives a damn anyway.

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Posted 12 Sep 2000.

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