Aborted Women: In Their Own Words

I said NO

by Sarah F
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I said NO! And I had my beautiful twins!!

It was just 3 weeks after my sweet 16 birthday. I was 1 day late for my period, and I thought, No, I can't be. But I was so curious I had to take the test, so I went and bought an at home test kit, and I and my boyfriend of 7 months waited for the results. Well there it was, two pretty pink lines. My boyfriend asked me what the results were and I told him they were negative. But I couldn't hold my tears back for 5 minutes, so he soon learned he would be a daddy. I went back to school just thinking about it and wondering if I should have the abortion or not.

So I made an appointment to have the abortion. I went there had the seaweed stick and everything, but when the doctor was going to put it in, I knew I couldn't go back. I got off the exam table, and just started crying. I couldn't do it. And you know, they never even asked me once if I wanted any counseling. They didn't even care. I told my boyfriend I was not going to kill my baby.

So, I decided to keep my pregnancy a secret from everyone except my boyfriend and my best friend until I couldn't anymore. My mom found out the evening of Mothers Day. I felt so bad I couldn't even tell her, but she kinda already knew. She told me that she would never accept the baby, and I would have to move out if I kept "it".

Again, I thought about abortion because they were all pressuring me. I made another appointment for abortion. That night I had an awful nightmare. I dreamed that I had the abortion, and there were two white towels with blood leaking through with a rose on each one. I never thought anything of it, other than I was a monster. The next day I had my ultra sound, and I don't know where it came from, but I blurted out, "Is there two inside me?" The woman smiled and said YES! You are 19 1/2 weeks pregnant with TWINS! And I started crying. I couldn't even look at the screen long enough to understand it.

After my ultrasound I told my boyfriend and he was stunned. I told my mom, and to believe it, she said, "You're still having the procedure." That weekend I was supposed to go to a special clinic about 7 hours away to have the abortion. I never went.

I told my mom, and she then was happy, I didn't understand her at all. After that, I had a wonderful pregnancy, and went to term, delivering my identical twin daughters at 38 weeks.

To this day, I wonder what I would have done if I let my family, and everyone around me, pressure me into abortion. I couldn't live knowing I aborted my babies. They are now beautiful blue-eyed angels, who will be turning 3 this September (2005). And I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I am wishing that this letter is read by all, and especially the ones considering abortion. I have been reading the stories of some of the moms who aborted, and they seem horrible, which means they must have not wanted the procedure to begin with. So please just think about it before you go and kill your child, or even your children. As far as you know, there could be 1, 2, 3 or even 4 babies inside you.

Abortion is not a way out. Choose Life Please!! There is always adoption if you still cannot go through with raising your child!

Good Luck to all the new mommies out there. May God give you the strength to stand up for yourself.

If there are any women out there who need someone to talk to, feel free to email me. I myself know the pain if decision. I made the right one. super_mom09_2002@yahoo.com


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Posted 26 Jun 2005.

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