Aborted Women: In Their Own Words

Should have done some research

by Jessica
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It's been just over four months since my abortion. There isn't a day when I don't think back and wish I had made a different decision. Prior to making my decision I wish I would have done more research. Looked up more stories. I hope that more people can share their stories and urge people against abortion. Contrary to how this may sound so far I'm not anti-abortion. I and most deffinity pro-choice. Everyone had the choice and I made mine.

I found out I was pregnant at about four weeks, and waiting roughly a week before I told my BF. I really just wasn't sure how to tell him. We hadn't wanted kids or anything. We both agreed we were going to wait until I had started my career. We did at the time, and still plan on sharing our lives together. But things happen. I got pregnant. I had previously said that I would never give up a child, but I did. Being naive and young, I let my boyfriend make most of the decision. He drove me, he made the phone calls. To this day, most of my friends and none of my family even know i was prego.

Talk about secrets. This is one that I will live with for the rest of my life. I have absolutly no one to talk to. I can't talk to my BF as many girls can't. Men see things completely differently, expecialy when i comes to children. They don't want them. Not before they're 30, anyways. Even though I didn't want a child before, there is nothing i want more now. I don't know if it is because I'm depressed about not having one, or if I believe that I would make a great mom. That I really just want a child.

When people tell you about the emotional side affects, believe them. Even if you are absolutly sure that you want to abort you will have some regret. Some "what if"s. And you will have feelings about what you did. To what degree no one can say. Make sure you are fully aware of what you are doing prior to making any decisions. Please.


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Feb 20, 2010

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