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I got pregnant in the beginning of this year with my boyfriend, who is 13 yrs older than me. When I missed my period I decided to take a home pregnancy test. I remember I was in Tunis that time. I felt happy when I found out that I was pregnant. I was hoping that my boyfriend would be happy about it too when I told him the news. Instead he freaked out and told me to abort the child. He told me it was not the right time to have a baby. I partially agreed with him but deep down inside I didn't want to. Abortion is illegal in the country I live in so it was hard for me to see any doctor. I talked to my child every day like a crazy person. I had this strong feeling that he was boy.

My boyfriend threatened me that if I didn't get rid of my baby he would leave me forever. I got scared, confused, and hopeless. One day he took me to his place and gave me seven pills to take. As I started swallowing the pills the tears were coming out from my eyes and I was praying to God to kill me with my child. I vomited. I felt pain and then after afew hours I started bleeding. Two days later I had a miscarriage and I had to flush out my baby in the toilet bowl.

I started hating myself and cry, cry everyday missing my child. I have his ultrasound pic in my purse and I carry it wherever I go. I can never forgive myself for not standing up for my baby. I love my child so much that I cry everyday missing him. My life now seems to be meaningless and I have given up hope in everything. I hope my baby forgives me!!!

I love you my unborn innocent child.

Mama


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Posted Aug 13, 2011

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