Aborted Women: In Their Own Words
The Sad Twist
by Angela R
When I was 16 I thought I was in love. I later found out that I was pregnant. My boyfriend broke up with me and wanted nothing to do with me so I went to my mother for help. She insisted that I have an abortion. I didn't want to have the abortion, but I had no place to go. I did have the abortion and felt a great sense of relief afterward. Later I became promiscuous and began to use drugs and drink a lot. My life was going to hell by then. I became pregnant again and had another abortion at my parents demand. A year later at the age of 19 I became pregnant a 3rd time. This time I was determined to keep my baby. I decided not to tell my parents about the baby. I had already broken up with my boyfriend when I found that I was pregnant so that support was not there. When I was about 6 months pregnant I decided to tell my parents. They were furious with me and embarrassed, this time there was no way they could force me to have another abortion. Three months later, I had a beautiful baby girl named Elizabeth. My daughter saved my life because when I was pregnant with her I turned my life around and became a Christian.
Today I am 31 years old, I have 3 daughters and a wonderful husband that love me very much. (He adopted my daughter Elizabeth as his own.) I realize that abortion is killing a human life and I have been haunted by what I had done. I now volunteer as a counselor at a Pro-life organization. I love life and know that the Lord has forgiven me: now I am in the process of forgiving myself. I love my babies that I lost and I pray for them often. I look forward to the day when I see them again. I mostly pray for forgiveness from my babies.
I would die for my children without thinking twice, any mother would. But the sad twist to any abortion story is this: We mothers did not die for our babies, our babies died for us and that is not right! Abortion should not be an option for young women. If only I had known.
Posted 30 Aug 2001.
Copyright 2001 by Pregnant Pause